It's friday night, where am I?
Lying on my bedroom floor.
Where else would I be?
It's better, here, on the cold floor,
Favorite book in tow,
Than it would ever be sitting face to face
With you.

It's silly really,
Everyone's infatuation.
Their obbsesion.
I'm much better off listening to my heart,
It's beat tops today's fad.
We could hold hands,
But I'm just not on your level.

I've got labels.
Worrywart.
Perfectionist.
Nerd.
Freak.
Set me free, I'm stuck.
Stuck in this image, no one sees me.
The real me, without the mask,
Without the humor.
Make me real.

I love you.
I shouldn't have said that.
I did anyway, it's time you knew anyway.
I hide everything,
I'll never let you breach the surface.
That's too personal.

holdmedownidon'twanttorunanymore.

For give the analogy,
But today was like ripples on a pond.
It always starts small,
But then it grows.
I can't get a grip on it anymore.
I stumble.
Catch me.



Bedhead.

Yes?
No?
Yes?
No?
Make up my mind for me, I'm tired of fighting it.
Thoughts are the enemy today,
It'll be you tomorrow.

6 senarios in my head.
3 if I say yes
3 if I say no.
It could be a disastor,
It could be beautiful.
I don't know if it's worth a shot.

maybeishouldjustgiveupitcouldbenice.

Someone bring me Autum.
My Autum,
When the colors are bright,
And my head is clear.
I you like I need a bad joke.


harrypottercankissmyass.


Bedhead.

i'mhestitatingagian.

You make me afraid to live life.
Afriad to take a stand,
For something,
For anything.
You've got me wrapped around your little finger.
I'm nothing but a puppet.

I've got bad days,
Bad hair,
And a bad attitude.
It'd be so easy to place all the blame on you,
But that's not fair.
But wait, since when am I fair?

I'm always somewhere and nowhere,
All at the same time.
I really am a shadow.
Let me be your shade.
I'll hide you from the sun.

I wish they'd quit calling me diamond eyes.
My eyes are far from diamonds.
Green coals are what they are,
That is if there is such a thing.
Do they know something I don't?
I am a pauper.




Bedhead.