I'm tired of crying tears that burn my face,
I was never one of those overemotional types.
There's a hole I have the urge to fill,
But nothing I try seems to fit.
I'm stuck inside my head and it's like a never ending maze.
I need help,
But I won't reach out my hand.
I wish I knew what it was like to smile for real.

I gave him up.
I was tired of pretending.
I never wanted him, he made me miserable.
They all do.
I can't have love.
I don't know what to do with it.
I'm a recluse.
My heart needs a jumpstart,
But I haven't found anyone with jumper cables.

Drink it in.
I'm drowning, it what you want isn't it?
Forgive me while me while my life goes up in flames.
The smoke's so thick I've forgotten my own name.
Rescue me.


Bedhead.